jumble kind of feelings.
insecurity has simply led me to live in this world full of cruelty and selfishness.
living with such doubts and fearfulness to the uncertainties invites more bad thoughts to come. how i wish it can be easily washed away.
i begin to feel like i'm losing control of my life. the question like 'who's actually in charge of my life?' popped out. and the fact that i'm working so hard to live up to people's expectation is a no-no solution to this issue.
i'm going to put all these into an end.
and i'm going to do that by doing the hardest part of it all - FORGIVE myself.
please pray for me. whoever you are that happen to read this.